I had the absolute worst case of heart burn in my entire life earlier. I guess it would right to say yesterday, technically, but who’s counting? It really bad. I just wanted to cry. It just felt like my entire chest was burning, and I got all hot and sweaty. I even went outside for a few minutes just to try to cool down. Finally, I came back inside and sprawled out on my bed in the dark, and after maybe fifteen or twenty minutes, it went away.

I have no doubt it was a direct result from the chili I had for dinner. I thought it was kind of spicy, and even as I was eating, I was afraid this might happen. Usually I’m not too bothered by spicy food, but I had a bout with heart burn a few weeks ago. This time definitely overshadowed the last, but it was scary and uncomfortable. I was half afraid I was having a heart attack or something, which is just ridiculous.

I hope I’m not getting acid reflux like my mom has. She can’t eat any kind of peppers, which wouldn’t be a problem for me since I avoid them anyway, but even so, it’s just not something I want to deal with.

But it has got me thinking about my health, and I’m thinking about going back on Weight Watchers and possible going on alli as well. I read before that the Weight Watchers diet is compatible with alli. I think since alli helps speed along the weight loss it might help out a lot because my biggest problem with dieting or trying to eat healthier is that I tend to get frustrated when I don’t see any results. Then the fatty foods that I usually crave start to win over again and I give up.

I guess I’ll just have to see. It’s really all a matter of money, but that’s the story of my life.

I was planning to watch the MTV Movie Awards tonight because they were showing a scene from Twilight tonight, but I forgot about it and missed it. Luckily, I found the clip online. I have to admit I’m pretty darn excited about this movie. I don’t know if it’s going to be the same as the book, and even if it’s not, I’ll always have the book to fall back on. I’m just anxious to see how it’s adapted for the big screen. Twilight has easily become one of my most favorite books. I feel so ridiculously fangirlish these days, but I can’t seem to help myself.

On a completely unrelated topic, I think I need to go back on Weight Watchers. I’ve been off since the week before graduation. I was just too stressed at the time to deal with trying to keep track of what I was eating on top of everything else. Well, I never went back on it. In fact, I think I’ve been doing even worse since then. I feel so slothlike and gluttonous. It’s pathetic. My biggest problem is just feeling hungry all the time. I know that taking something like Fenphedra would probably help with that, but right now money is tight.

I need to get back on the job hunt and find something. It’s just kind of scary being out there in the real world now and knowing where to look. I guess all I can really do is look around for places that are hiring and start sending out my resume and hope for the best.