Adulthood

I’m making brownies. I need chocolate. I also need sleep. And a vacation from everything. I’ve been in an incredibly funky mood as of late. I’m either incredibly grumpy or completely indifferent. I can’t explain it.

I also started writing. But I think it probably sucks. I can’t really tell anymore. I haven’t been writing anything regularly for ages, and so I feel completely out of practice. I could try selling bcbsnc plans and probably have more confidence in that, with no experience, than I currently do in my writing skills.

It’s frustrating. I used to love writing. I used to do it every day. Now, nothing. And what little I do write, I can’t help but second guess. When did life start to suck so much? I guess I know the answer to that – when I had to grown up and become a responsible adult. Now I understand why I always thought my parents were such killjoys. The life had been sucked out of them by adulthood.

A Realistic Valentine’s Day

So my day thus far has been filled up with watching Tori. Have I mentioned recently that she’s a complete jabber box? Now I understand why my parents always seemed to have selective hearing. The kid just talks nonstop, and she comes up with some of the funniest things. I love her to pieces, though. It might be constant jabber, but most of it’s pretty entertaining and adorable.

Valentine’s Day is coming up. I like to call it the black day. It’s just not any fun when you don’t have someone to share it with. I could go on and on about how I wish I had a valentine to take me out for a romantic dinner where we sipped wine and stared longingly into each others eyes, but I like to think of myself as more of a realist, sometimes verging on pessimist. My best bet is probably to join a wine of the month club and drown my sorrows in said wine and snuggling up with a romance novel to live vicariously through instead of pining for my non-existent soulmate.

On that very depressing note, I think I may go bake cookies with Tori. Chocolate always helps perk me up.

My Shows

Ah, I’m so happy that my shows are back on. LOST, American Idol, Supernatural and Bones are enough to make me giddy. Lie To Me is actually pretty good too. Unfortunately, it’s on at the same time as LOST, so that kind of complicates things. Obviously, one cannot watch LOST while doing other things because you’re likely to miss something otherwise. I love it, though. I’m confused most of the time, but still I love it.

Something I do not love is that fact that we got seven inches of snow overnight. I look outside and cringe. Snow is just … ew. School was canceled around here, and the local schools are already on two hour delays. We’re having a plow come tomorrow to dig out our driveway because right now, none of us are going anywhere.

I can’t believe it’s nearly February. Spring shall be upon us before long. I’m looking forward to that after facing the wretched snow. I think the idea of spring also lifts my mom’s spirit. Bart said around Christmas time that he thought his house would be ready for my mom, Allyson, Blaine and Tori to move back in with him. If it’s true, I can totally see my mom hiring some moving services and getting out of her dinky little apartment. Of course, I don’t think the size of the apartment is the problem – though Allyson and Blaine would probably say is it, but I think money is short for everyone, and I know not having to pay rent would probably help my mom out a lot.

So, I spent my evening making peanut butter chocolate chip cookies. I’m not even going to lie. They were pretty fantastic if I do say so myself. Yum yum. I’m probably going to go into sugar overload now, but I can’t help the fact that I’m totally craving another mug of hot cocoa topped with whipped cream. ‘Tis cold! Brr.

Grandma’s Birthday

Today was my grandma’s birthday, and we had a dinner for her. My mom made potato soup, and it was really good – and that’s really saying something since I typically don’t care for it. And we also had chips and lunch meat for sandwiches. My mom made a caramel apple cake. Cakes seem to be her specialty. She likes to experiment with them. Most of the time they turn out pretty good, but there have been a few botched efforts, such as the Kool Aid cake.

After we ate and the presents were opened, my mom, Allyson and I went to Goodwill, TJ Maxx and Kohls. I found a cute shirt at TJ Maxx, and a couple of pairs of shoes at Kohls. I also went shopping yesterday and got a shirt at Maurice’s before I stopped by Sears to pick up a gift card for my grandma’s birthday.

I really need to buy some new make-up. I’ve been trying to take care of my skin, washing it at night – especially when I’ve been wearing make-up, and then moisturizing with some facial lotion. I almost bought a blackhead remover while I was at Target yesterday. I know that Clean and Clear has a product for that, but sometimes that brand dries out my skin, so I was kind of reluctant to get it. I might go to Wal-Mart tomorrow and see if I can find some other brand for the same thing, and see about buying some new foundation while I’m at it. I’ve almost spent all of my birthday money, which is just kind of depressing.

On a completely random note, I burnt my tongue eating the potato soup today and it hurts.

Mmm Cookies

Tori and I did some baking today. We made chocolate chip cookies. She absolutely loves to help. She gets to pour all of the ingredients into the mixing bowl. Then she holds on with me while we use the mixer. As much as I enjoy it, though, it’s such a long process. Not that actual cookie dough making, but putting heaping spoonfuls of dough onto the cookie sheets. It just takes a while, but I suppose it worth it in the end. Yummy chocolatey goodness.

On the other hand, I’m having a horrible acne breakout. I hate how those spring up. Last week, I was free and clear. This week not so much. It just to pop up right before I went to renew my driver’s license, which was ridiculous in it’s own right. I had to pay $19! Ugh.

Season four of Supernatural premiered last night. I loved every second of it, and I cannot wait for me. I don’t know that I can say much more than that.

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