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It’s getting closer still to Breaking Dawn. I feel like this is all I talk about lately, and I know it’s ridiculous. Honestly, though, I’m not sure I could shut myself up if I wanted to, which I really don’t. I’m just so anxious to get my hands on the book. I’m almost wishing I would have pre-ordered my copy at the store, so I could just go pick it up on Saturday. I might end up doing that anyway. I’m sure I could always sell or return the copy I ordered online. We’ll have to see. It depends on how much money I have and such. I’m kind of sad that I’m not going to a release party. People dressed up in sexy costumes – or attempting to to make up for the lack of unnatural, inhuman beauty – and talking about the Twilight series just sounds like fun. I guess it’s not that big of a deal, though, since I really wouldn’t want to go alone. I’m just ready for Saturday to arrive and to read Breaking Dawn

Another day closer to Breaking Dawn. I should start singing “I Will Survive” to convince myself I’m going to make it to August 2nd. I doubt it would help and would probably only result in embarrassment, but whatever.

I went to the mall with my mom yesterday. She wanted to see if she could get some waterproof pants – like a pancho – for my brother since his jeans were getting soaked during detassling. Then I came home and listened to the live MuggleCast. I think I’ll have to download it and listen again because it cut out a few times on me and Firefox also froze once or twice. Very annoying.

So my grandpa got in trouble with my grandma last week. She looked out the window and saw that he decided to attach some of his ham radio antenna’s to Tori’s swing set. It’s one of those wooden swing sets, so it’s pretty sturdy, but even so, it looks ridiculous. I think he might had taken one of them down. He’s such a clutter bug sometimes.

So the trailer for Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince premiered tonight. It looks so good. I can’t even begin to explain. I think for the first time I’m actually excited about the movie. Before I didn’t have too much to go on, so my excitement was lacking. Now that I’ve had a glance, I think it’s going to be great. And it did help distract me from Breaking Dawn … briefly.

I think I’ve officially started hating getting mail. It’s always junk. I can’t foresee a point in my life when I’ll need travel health insurance. Of course, I would love to have a reason for it, but right now that’s just a pipe dream. I really need to find a full time job. I have enough money to get by from month to month, but it would be nice not to live that way.

I’m going crazy waiting for Breaking Dawn. I’m very tempted to look at some spoilers, but I know if I do, I’ll just be angry with myself in the end. I’m just too anxious, and it’s making it so hard to deal with the suspense. And the daily quotes are doing nothing to help because they’re only making me nervous. I’m so excited about this book that it’s driving me crazy. I just don’t know what to do with myself while I wait.

I have heard that the Half Blood Prince trailer is supposed to premiere tomorrow, so I’ll have that to look forward to. It’s about darn time! They’ve been posting random covers for stuff like books and videos games, and, honestly, I’m really not that impressed. They all seem to look simliar to things from the past, and some of the images look like someone went a little overboard with the airbrush in Photoshop.

I’m really excited about the trailer, though, so maybe that will help tide me over for Breaking Dawn. In the meantime, I’m reading Twilight for about the millionth time.

- So the night out with the girls was a blast. Amanda was late, naturally. I wouldn’t expect any less of her. If she wasn’t late, she wouldn’t be Amanda. So Shakti and I went ahead and ordered and we were eating dessert by the time Amanda arrived. We talked about what’s been going on since graduation, movies, books, boys. All that fun stuff.

- I met my sister’s new boyfriend, Dennis, yesterday. I don’t know much about him aside from the facts that he’s 25, has a younger brother and sister, and he’s tall. But he didn’t appear to be stoned, so that’s at least one step above Mitch. The jury is still out on the verdict.

- My brother pulled a muscle in his shoulder last night, and our mom had to take him to the ER. At first they thought he’d dislocated his shoulder. He was at our cousin’s house, wrestling. Boys are so ridiculous.

- I finally got to see The Dark Knight! I felt like I was the only person who hadn’t seen it for a while. It was so good. Heath Ledger was so amazing. I still can’t believe he’s gone. :(

- I actually wrote some yesterday. I have been so slack about writing, but I made myself sit down and reread the last thing I wrote and I added over a page. That’s not huge, but it’s improvement at least.

- I also talked to Taye a bit. I’ve missed her. We caught up, and I think we’re going to try our hands at a collaboration. We’re actually picking up something we started ages ago. I think it’ll be fun. I’ve missed my friend and I’ve missed writing way too much.

- So I was looking at this contraption called the Stokke Tripp Trapp. When I first looked at it, honestly, I had no idea what it was. Upon reading, it was obvious it was one of those sort of change as you grow sort of things. It reminded me of one of my all time favorite books is The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen because the main character’s dad used to always buy stuff like that. Things that are supposed to make life easier. Random, but it was just a funny thought association I had. Honestly, stuff like that is great. If you take care of it long enough to get the use out of it. With my family, that seems nearly impossible.

- 6 days until Breaking Dawn! Wee! I’m rereading Eclipse right now. Unfortunately, I think I’ll finish either tonight or tomorrow, so I don’t know what I’ll do to tide myself over until Breaking Dawn. Probably read Twilight again for the millionth time. *obsessed*

I went to Applebees for dinner last night with a couple of my friends from college. It was nice to get together and catch up. It’s only been a couple of months, but it’s weird going from seeing each other almost every day to not seeing each other at all.

I felt miserable after I ate, though. I got one of those three course dinners, and while the price is great, it’s just a lot of food. I’ve been thinking about going on a diet again. I just need to find the motivation first. I think if I do try again, I need the help for something like Phentermine or Alli because I just get so frustrated going it on pure will. My will is not that strong, sadly.

I think if I do start again, it’ll have to be at the end August. We have birthdays and reunions to get through, and those just completely slay me and my will to be good on the food front. Life is so frustrating. Why must everything be such a challenge?

I’m so excited. Breaking Dawn is out in nine days. I’m really anxious about reading the book. At the same time I’m kind of sad that it’s the last book, at least from Bella’s perspective. I know I still have Midnight Sun to look forward, but it just feels like the series came out too fast. I probably only think that because I only got interested in the fandom last December. It just feels good to be interested in something again, like I was with Harry Potter. Not that I’m not still interested in Harry Potter. There are still three movies left to go for that series, which is always exciting. I guess that is something I also have to look forward to with Twilight. At least three of the four books are going to be made into movies, assuming the first one does well.

I’ve been so into Twilight lately, and it’s weird because it seems to have outruled me love of Hanson. I used to always check for new news on them, but lately I haven’t really been that interested. Which is why it’s amusing that, naturally, they did this huge photoshoot with over 100 pictures that surfaced. I looked, of course, out of curiosity, but only because Becca sent me an email with the link. Otherwise, it probably would have been days before I noticed. It’s weird. Zac looks so horrible these days. He needs a haircut. I never thought I’d see the day when I didn’t find him very attractive, but he’s succeeded. Isaac’s even looking better than him to me, and if you know me, then you know that’s huge. Taylor, of course, is still gorgeous. I feel like the 13-year-old in me will forever be in love with him, even when he’s wearing ridiculous scarves, too tight pants and copious amounts of religious jewelry. It just feels weird, though, because my interest in them has just been waning so much lately. Usually when there’s a rash of news, like the new tour dates, babies, or pictures, my interest is piqued again. Lately, not so much. Maybe it’s just a sign of growing up, which I’m sure I need to do more of. I think that deep down I’ll always be a fan, even if I’m not always a rapid fangirl. I don’t think I have a choice. I think I’m too afraid to let go and move on, which, honestly, is kind of sad.

The thing I hate most about getting a sunburn, aside from the burn itself and the pain that comes along with it, is peeling. It’s gross. Especially when it’s on your face. For the last few days I’ve felt like my head is falling apart. Not to mention, I’m pretty sure my scalp got burnt and I look like I’ve got a dandruff problem. I don’t. I swear. I think for the most part, I’m done peeling, though.

I’ve been feeling pretty icky the last few days. I had a horrible headache the other night and took some aspirin and crawled into bed to sleep it off. I think it may be allergies. I didn’t notice it too much around Kentucky Kingdom, but, of course, it’s not out in the country among fields and flowers. We have fields on all sides of us here, so I’m pretty sure that’s the culprit. I should probably invest in a Blueair air purifier, but I probably won’t. I just don’t have the money for anything extra right now. But I don’t get into finances. It will just depress me.

Well, I survived the family vacation to Six Flags: Kentucky Kingdom. It was fun. Naturally, I got burnt, but like I was telling Nikki, I think that’s just a given for me. We spent most of the time in the water park.They had a water roller coaster that was a lot of fun. I went on it twice, and then we spent a lot of time at the wave pool. Those things got pretty intense the further in and closer to the middle you were. But it was a blast.

I think my computer liked my absence as well. It had a whole two days off. It’s weird but right before I left it was going really fast, but I think that has more to do with the wireless router than my actual computer. I’m not sure why it does like that, but I wish the Internet would go fast all of the time. Oh, well, it’s still better than the old computer. That thing is like a snail.

So the 4H Fair is in full swing. I know this because it’s pretty much all I’ve heard about from my grandparents. Why? Because my grandpa volunteered to be in charge of the Historical Society’s booth, much to my grandma’s chagrin. He always does this even though he knows the Crail family reunion falls on the same Sunday as the 4H Fair, and my grandma is in charge of it.

I have my doubts about the success of the 4H Fair this year, though. Why? Because there are no rides. No, not joking. I’m serious. It’s hard to believe and completely ridiculous. I thought it was common knowledge that the rides were pretty much the only real motivation for teenagers to go to the 4H Fair. Now, they’ve been reduced to popcorn machines and caged bunnies. It’s lame. Really. I don’t know what kind of turn out they were expecting, but I can bet it’s going to be sorely lacking once people find out about the absence of rides.

Since Friday was the 4th of July, we had a cookout here. Hamburgers, hot dogs, chips. The whole shebang. Unfortunately, my cousins and brother were obnoxious, as usual. I, honestly, can’t ever imagine being that annoying at that age. I might have been from time to time, but, overall, I just don’t think I was.

Anyway, it was raining off and on most of the evening, which sucked because the point of the cookout was sort of to be outside. The kids stayed outdoors most of the time, though, which was nice since they were so annoying. And we really don’t have the best outdoor lighting anyway.

The fireworks started at ten, so around 9:30 I rode with my grandparents up to my mom’s house to watch them. Thankfully, it hadn’t rained too much at her house, but in town is was pouring down. The fireworks weren’t nearly as exciting at they used to be, and I got bit my mom a stupid mosquito – on the hand, no less.

But we had s’mores afterward, which sort of made it okay. Nothing to extravagant, but it was still nice.