I am so tired. I didn’t sleep well last night, and I think it was mainly due to the fact I knew I had a presentation to do today that I wasn’t sure I, or the rest of the group was ready for. In the end it wound up going okay. It could have been better, but all things considered I’m just glad that it’s over.

When I came home, Smokey, my cat, was crashed out on my bed. That seems to be his new favorite napping place. It must be wonderful being a cat and being able to sleep all day long. He’s so fat and lazy, though. When I lived with my mom, she bought this two tier thing with pet beds on the top and bottom. I think Sammie, my sister’s cat, was the only one to venture onto the thing, and I think even now she’d be the only one who would even be close to fitting on it. They were pretty small, though. They were probably made for kittens, which clearly none of them are now. Emmy, my mom’s cat, is basically all fur while Smokey is mostly blubber.

Speaking of, Smokey is scratching at my door, so I’m either going to go let him in or throw him outside. I haven’t decided which.

So I have my portfolio presentation today. It went well, surprisingly. I didn’t freeze up and completely lose my train of thought, which is a vast improvement from what happened at the practice presentation.

I cut my hair yesterday. I lost about eight inches, and when it’s straight it still doesn’t quite reach my chin, so it’s really short. This is my final week of classes, and I have one final down and three to go.

My grandma has also decided that I need to send out graduation invitation even though I know just the immediate family is going to go, but I guess I have to make them to send along with the open house invitations.

So once I finish classes, I’ll probably be swept up into cleaning like a mad woman to make the house nice and pretty. Now, I’m not kidding. My grandma goes crazy with the cleaning when people are coming over. The only thing missing are the steam cleaners, but I think that’s only for a lack of money.

But I guess I shouldn’t complain. I just hope I can talk her into addressing all of the envelopes. It’s bad enough I have to make my own invitations.

Okay, so my last post was a little ranty. Let’s start again, shall we? My last day of school is May 8th. I just have a lot of stuff to do before then. I just hope that nothing else comes up between now and then.

I don’t know if we’re doing anything special for my graduation. At this point, I don’t really care so long as I can take a break and breath.

I can’t believe that it’s already May. My dad’s birthday is a couple of days before my graduation. I still haven’t decided if I’m going to invite him to come. I just don’t know if I can deal. I doubt I’ll buy him anything for this birthday either. Maybe men’s jewelry in the form of a pill box. That seems about his speed, though, I doubt the pills would last long.

I hate being so bitter toward my own dad. It’s just really, really hard for me. As much as I want to like him or have a relationship with him, I think that there will just always be too much bad history.

Anyway, I’m not going to worry about any of that. At this point I just need to focus on my final projects and make sure I do well. Otherwise, it’ll put a real damper on graduation.

Argh, it’s been a long day, and it’s only 1:30. My grandma is about on my last nerve today. I don’t think she realizes how absolutely aggravating she can be. Sometimes I just want to tell her to shut up because it seems like she just never stops. My patience is thin enough as it is these days, and I really don’t need another reason to just snap at someone. It seems like she’s just dead set on making it happen. Then she’ll get upset and act like I’m the devil’s spawn or something.

Anyway, my mom came out last night to pick up Tori, and to my surprise she stayed for at least a couple of hours. Normally, she doesn’t stick around for very long. They were talking about this woman she works with. Apparently her dad is really bad about starting projects and not finishing them. I guess he started putting new cabinets in her kitchens and never finished. I asked why she couldn’t finish because she didn’t have the doors on the cabinets. What’s so hard about putting a door on a cabinet and adding some door hardware if it doesn’t come with the door already?

People are stupid. That is my general opinion right now, and I suspect as the next few days pass this opinion will only get worse. I just need to finish this semester and graduation and regain my sanity. Please.