I feel so restless these days. It’s mostly related to my desire to write. I seem to have all sorts of stories in my head, but I can’t seem to make myself sit down and concentrate on getting it out. I miss the days where I could just sit down and start writing without much thought. I’m supposed to be focusing on a story named Solace, and I have all sorts of bits and pieces of it in my head, but I also have a couple of other stories floating around that I feel like could have some potential. If I could just find the drive to start writing, I’m sure I could get them out, but I can’t seem to get myself to do that.

I also have some bits and pieces from the story I wrote last November for NaNoWriMo in my head. It was called Orange Sky, and I let people submit challenges, and I didn’t use all of them and I planned to write short pieces that went along with the story, but I haven’t gotten around to it. I should have done it right away. I was in the right frame of mind and setting for the story. Now I think I’d have a hard time getting back there without going back and looking into New York City travel and stuff like that because that’s where the story was set.

I don’t know. I can’t call it writer’s block since I have the stories in my head. Maybe it should be called writer’s motivation block. Hmm.

Ugh, I think my allergies are starting to finally get to me. Yesterday, I started couching and could not stop. I found some cold medicine and it seemed to help. I also had a horrible headache. It was so bad I had to lie down for a while, and I thought I’d just be out for an hour or so. I didn’t wake up until about four hours later. I got up but was back in bed a couple of hours later.

I’ve got some stuff to do for work, but it’s hard with Blaine here because it’s good at distracting me. He always want to watch a movie. We’ve already watched all of my Harry Potter movies. I don’t have a whole lot beyond that, but I’m sure he’ll manage to find something.

I’ve also been trying to get back into writing. I’ve had an idea rolling around in my head to do something with a plot that contains European cruises somehow. I think that’s just a residual effect from watching Ghost Ship a few weeks ago. Sometimes too many movies can be a bad thing for my brain. I get ideas and forget about the stuff I’ve already started. I don’t think that’s too much of a threat right now. I know what I’m supposed to be working on, and I have the ideas. I just haven’t had the time or motivation to get them out of my head yet. Soon, though, I hope to.

I went to the movies last night for the first time in what seems like forever. I went to see Horton Hears A Who! with my mom, Bart, and Tori. It was the first time Tori had ever been to the show. I think she did pretty good and liked it well enough. It was a cute movie. I won’t say I loved it, but I still enjoyed it. Over the weekend, I watched Tuck Everlasting and Breach. They were both pretty good. I also go Awake from my mom, but I haven’t had time to watch it. I might try to do that sometime today after I do some more.

I got my cap and gown yesterday at school, so graduation is slowly closing in. This is where I pull my hair and scream. There’s still just a lot left to do. I think I’m making pretty good headway on my portfolio, but I also have a big group project that we’re probably going to be working on constantly for the next week and a half. I think it’s going to be fun, though.

I need to make the invitations for my graduation still. I can’t decide if I want to invite my dad. That sounds horrible, but just the idea of facing him is enough to give me an anxiety attack. The best gift he could give me for graduation would be checking himself into drug rehab and getting his life straightened out. Of course, that’s something he can’t do for me. He had to do if for himself, and I doubt he ever will.

Last night I managed to do some writing for the first time in what feels like forever. It was for my story Solace, which is a sequel to Infinite. I only wrote about a page or so, but considering the only other thing I’ve written this year was about a chapter and a half of another story, I’m not complaining. Any progress is progress in my eyes.

It’s been a few days since I’ve blogged. Oops! I went shopping with my mom yesterday. We went to Kohls, Fashion Bug, Goody’s, the mall and then finally Wal-Mart. I bought a few things while we were shopping. I got a new pair of shoes, a couple of shirts, and then some stuff from Bath and Body Works. I also bought Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer, but I ordered them from Overstock.com.

I had an appointment to get my eyes checked at Wal-Mart, and I picked out some new frames. I’m so anxious to get them. I hate the ones I have now. I went back to wire frames, and I upgraded to the option where my lens are even thinner than they are now. I had to pay $30 of that, but I figured it was worth it.

My mom also by Trivial Pursuit - 80s, 90s and Pop Culture, and after picking up Trey and going to eat at Steak -n- Shake, we came here and Bart met us and we all played the game. Allyson even came out after she got off of work and played the game too. Her and Trey were a team and they wound up winning. It was a lot of fun. It was nice to hang out with the family and do something together.

I forgot to look while I was at Wal-Mart. I wanted to pick up some new notebooks and pens. I got a new idea for a story, and I need a new notebook to use for keep notes. And I need new pens because they seem to disappear around here, and I’m picky about the kind of pen I’ll use. It’s weird, but it’s just one of my many quirks. I need to order some promotional pens with my name or something like that on them so that people will quit stealing them from me! Makes me angry. Oh well. I’ll live.

Well, I finished my story for NaNoWriMo about two hours ago. It’s an amazing feeling. I was a little worried that I wouldn’t make it before midnight, but it all seemed to come together at once. It was quite a relief. I’m also quite pleased with the outcome, and I got a standing ovation from my beta, Becca, so that helps too. Now I wonder if I’ll know what to do without having to write every single day. I would be nice if I kept up with it and wrote like that anyway, but I know I won’t. It’s just too stressful, especially with the beginning of finals starting now.