I was planning to watch the MTV Movie Awards tonight because they were showing a scene from Twilight tonight, but I forgot about it and missed it. Luckily, I found the clip online. I have to admit I’m pretty darn excited about this movie. I don’t know if it’s going to be the same as the book, and even if it’s not, I’ll always have the book to fall back on. I’m just anxious to see how it’s adapted for the big screen. Twilight has easily become one of my most favorite books. I feel so ridiculously fangirlish these days, but I can’t seem to help myself.

On a completely unrelated topic, I think I need to go back on Weight Watchers. I’ve been off since the week before graduation. I was just too stressed at the time to deal with trying to keep track of what I was eating on top of everything else. Well, I never went back on it. In fact, I think I’ve been doing even worse since then. I feel so slothlike and gluttonous. It’s pathetic. My biggest problem is just feeling hungry all the time. I know that taking something like Fenphedra would probably help with that, but right now money is tight.

I need to get back on the job hunt and find something. It’s just kind of scary being out there in the real world now and knowing where to look. I guess all I can really do is look around for places that are hiring and start sending out my resume and hope for the best.

So, I’ve lost eleven pounds since I started back on Weight Watchers. I have to admit, I’m pretty proud of myself. I think if I had more time or motivation to actually exercise, I’d be able to lose more.

I envy people with home gyms. They just have to go into the next room to do their workout. I’m such a homebody. I just don’t like leaving the house, especially to go excercise among a bunch of people who are probably thin and fit.
But even without exercising regularly, just changing how much I eat has helped a lot. I’ve gone to diet pop, which I’ll admit has been a bit of an adjustment. I miss Dr. Pepper. A lot. I think I was addicted, and no matter what people say Diet Dr. Pepper does not taste the same to me.

I really just want the weight to keep coming off. I know the goal in my head is so big that I’m just taking baby steps for now. If I could lose forty more pounds, I’d be happy. Anything over that, would just be that much better. But I can’t let myself think about it that way because if I do, it just seems like my goal is too far away and too far out of reach.

I’ve been so sick this week. I’m not even kidding. There were a few day where I just found it exhausting to get out of bed. Needless to say, I don’t feel like I accomplished much this week. Luckily, though, I don’t think I got too far behind either, so, hopefully, over the weekend, I can play catch up on stuff and sort of break even as far as my workload goes.

After this semester is over and I get through graduation, I feel like I need a vacation just to celebrate my survival. It’s been pretty stressful and hectic. Of course, I’m sure part of it’s just dreading the end of the semester presentations I have to make. I doubt my mom and Bart will be planning anymore vacations to any Branson resorts since their last experience involved a lot of rain. Although, I think the decision was finally made that it’s one of them that causes the vacation to go awry. But maybe they’ll plan another trip to Holiday World or something fun like that. Of course, I’ll have to lose some weight before I venture into the water park again. I feel so gross these days, which is why I’m back on Weight Watchers. So far, so good, all things considered.

I cannot sleep. This is ridiculous. I wish I could get myself into some sense of order because I am not functioning well on less than seven hours of sleep each not, and I’m saying seven as the max amount I’ve been getting most nights.

My easter was good. We had dinner and then an easter egg hunt. It was fun. Then I tried playing my cousin’s Nintendo DS. I’m not so good at that. Then they had to leave to go to their other grandparent’s house with their mom. Cody had to call his mom to see what time their dinner was over there, and while he was on the phone, Cole kept calling his mom a druggie. The sad part of it? It’s true. She really needs to be in some sort of drug rehabilitation. I’m not exactly sure what she’s using, but I’ve heard a very wide range of things, none of which are good.

My addiction, which I have to say is far less troublesome, is chocolate. The amount of candy I received today was more than enough to quench that addiction. Unfortunately, after this week, that will be the last of it for me because I’m starting Weight Watcher again. I’m going to do it online. Hopefully, it will work again. This time I’ll just have to stick with it. I’m so sick of being overweight.

I bought an iPod nano on Wednesday night. Well, that’s when I ordered it anyway. It’s currently in transit. I got the 8GB Product (Red) one with the engraving “I want to believe / There’s something to believe.” It’s from the Hanson song “Believe.” I thought abut choosing something from “Great Divide” since it sort of goes hand in hand with helping in Africa, but I know a lot of people got that engraving. Besides, I think “Believe” fits just as well, and it’s more personal that way.

I can’t believe Thanksgiving is next week. I hadn’t even realized it until someone said something about no classes next Wednesday - Friday. I’m excited for Thanksgiving. My mouth is already watering at the thought of all the food. I still haven’t decided what I’m going to fix yet. The only thing is that this means Christmas will be just around the corner. I have lots of shopping to do. Let’s just hope buying the iPod didn’t set me back too much.

Also, I’m kind of ready for the new year to get here. I’m going back on Weight Watchers then. I’m certainly ready to lose the weight. I’m pretty sure I gained back everything I lost over the summer. The only bad this is I won’t really have many options for exercise. It will be too cold to walk, I’m sure. We really need an elliptical. That would be quite useful for the winter, but I suppose I’ll figure something out.