I feel like I’ve been dropped into the middle of a Garth Brooks songs. The thunder rolls and the lightning strikes. Not nearly as appealing as the song, let me tell you. It’s been like this since yesterday. In town in front of my mom’s apartment, two phone poles were blown over and a truck was caught in the wires. Bart had to call 911. It was insanity. It makes me nervous. If I was smart, I’d just sleep through it all like Blaine did.

On a completely different topic, I’m beginning to wish that when I ordered my computer I’d got more computer memory. I got 1gb, which is better than the old computer because it was running 512mb, but I usually have 3 or 4 main programs running on my computer at a time, and they’re iTunes, FireFox, Adobe Photoshop and Adobe Dreamweaver, and between the 4 of them, it just drains the memory. I don’t know if I could just upgrade to more memory or not, but at least I’ll know better next time.

Well, I actually got out of the house today. I’ve felt like such a hermit lately. Of course, it was raining the whole time I was out, so it wasn’t precisely pleasant. I had to go by the bank and deposit the money I got as gifts for graduation. Then I had to go by Dollar General and pick up a few things before I went by and picked up Blaine. He wanted to stay the night here tonight, which is nice since I feel like I haven’t seen him in weeks.

This weather, though, is a real bummer. I’ve been reading a lately, and it’s mostly been books by Sarah Dessen, and all of the books take place in this made up town of Lakeview, and any time there’s a mention of the beach, it kind of depresses me because it’s so dreary here. For some reason I always imagine one of those Outer Banks vacation homes while I’m reading.

Speaking of vacations, I’m not sure if we’re going anywhere this year. My mom mentioned vacation, but with her I’m never actually sure if that invitation extends to me. I feel like I’m imposing if I ask if I’m allowed to go. But then if I don’t, I feel left out of all of the family adventures. Blah. That probably means I just need to get a life and find things for myself to do so I won’t feel left out.

I cannot believe it’s June already. Granted, it’s only been June for two days, it still seems unbelievable that we’re into the sixth month of the year. That means there are only six more moths left of 2008, and that’s just too bizarre to fathom.

This afternoon I lounged around on the front porch while Tori rode her tricycle. She can actually reach the pedals this year. I can’t get over how big she is. It must by mind boggling for Allyson. Of course, I can’t believe my sister is almost 20. I always think of her as still being thirteen. I wonder if it’ll always be that way.

The weather was nice. It was sunny, but there was a breeze. It would have been perfect for walking, but then I think about getting out in the sun and that horrible sunburn I got last year, and I just shrink back. It would be perfect if we had a treadmill on the front porch. I’d still be outside, but out of the sun. I guess we can’t have it all.

This weather is still crazy. Today it was in the 80s and seemed fairly nice. Now, I’m not sure if it’s cooled down any, but the sun is long gone and all I can hear in the distance is the rumbling of thunder. My grandma said they mentioned something about tornadoes on the news. That’s certainly not something I want to hear. But I guess it’s something I should be used to with Indiana weather. I’m just not used to not being sure if it’s okay to start buying sandbox and pool toys for my niece or if I should be preparing for the end of the world. Not that there’s much I could do to prepare for it anyway.

Aside from the crazy weather, I’ve delved back into reading. I’ve missed it quite a bit in the last few years. I used to always read, but like with so many other things real life got in the way and everything else fell to the wayside. I just finished reading That Summer by Sarah Dessen. Earlier this week I read another of her books, her newest one, Lock and Key. I’ve got a couple more of her books that I bought a while back that I’m planning on getting into next. I just feel better when I’m reading. I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s just that it requiring using your brain, when so much else in life doesn’t take much effort at all. Either way, I’m glad to be reading again. I feel like I’m connecting the person I am now with the person that I used to be.

I am going to make a new layout for this website. That’s what I’m going to do today because it’s been way to long since I made a new one. I may even upgrade WordPress, and possibly do a hostee clean up. I don’t have too many hostees on this domain, but the ones I do seem to have disappeared, and I can’t see much point in wasting space.

So the weather has been insane lately. One day it’s hot and humid, and it makes me want to grab my swimsuit and head for the pool, which should be an indication of how ick it really is, and the next it’s dark and dreary and cold and I just feel like crawling back into bed five minutes after I woke up.

Something’s got to give here. This is just crazy if you ask me. I know it’s still spring, not officially summer, but by this point the weather is usually pretty steady. The only thing that’s steady about the weather these days is that it’s unpredictable.