Assuming I survive the next couple of months, a bed and breakfast gift certificate would be a great Christmas present for me. I’m stressed. Between school, the holidays and other stupid stuff, I’m feeling a bit frazzled. This whole being an adult thing isn’t easy, and I’m beginning to understand why my mom was often so grouchy when I was growing up.

On a brighter note, I’m very excited because Hanson added an Indiana tour date. However, I don’t know if I’ll get to go. I think I could probably afford it, but I don’t have anyone to go with. I usually go with Nikki, and since she’s moving to California, I’d say the possibility of her going are zilch. I’m not sure if I’m brave enough to even bother to ask my sister. I doubt she’d agree to go. It’s really not any fun at all when none of your friends that live nearby like your favorite band. I suppose I could always beg my sister or resort to pleading with my mom. Although, it might be better to just go alone since the likelihood of them complaining the whole time is pretty high.

I got my Rilo Kiley CD in the mail today. I’m just now getting around to listening to it, though. I’ve been kind of sidetracked. I started thinking about one of my stories that’s basically been finished for months now, and how there was this one section that I just didn’t like. It was sort of a transition section, and I just felt like it was missing something. I basically felt that way when I wrote it, but I couldn’t decide what to do to fix it. While I was in the shower today, I had an idea. So I came in here and started writing. I wound up with about seven more pages. I didn’t actually end up adding anymore chapters to the story, but I just wound up changing the way the chapters came together. I still need to edit, and it’s rather angsty, which I don’t think I do often, so I hope it turned out alright.

I was listening to one of the XM radio stations on satellite earlier and they were talking about Amy Winehouse. I like her song “Rehab,” but, ironically, she’s currently in drug rehab. I’m not sure if she was supposed to preform at the MTV Music Awards or was just nominated, but they weren’t sure if she’d be out of rehab by then. I guess she’ll have to change the lyrics of her song because not only did the try to make her go to rehab, they seem to have succeeded.

I watched the movie Hard Candy last night. I’m not entirely sure what I think of it. I don’t think it’s one of those movies where you can say you just loved it. It made me think more than anything else, and, actually, really creeped me out. I’m glad I didn’t ask my grandma if she wanted to watch it with me. That would have been awkward. I just don’t know. I think I liked it mostly because it just made me think and go “whoa.”

I finally got my Eisley CD Thursday. Love it. And I got a signed poster, which I thought was pretty nifty. Now I have to figure out what to do with it to keep it from getting bent.

I got a cell phone. We ordered it yesterday, so I’ll probably get it Monday. My grandma added me to her plan for $10 a month and the phone was free, which is cool. I’ll have to see if I can find the pictures again to share what it looks like.

I relented to the trendiness and watched High School Musical 2 last night. I suppose I had to. After all, they’ve been talking about the movie so much for the last year you’d think is was … I don’t know … the most amazing thing over. It wasn’t. It was okay, but I guess I don’t understand the hype. I’m got the movie Hard Candy today from Netflix. I’ll probably watch it later tonight.

I have another family reunion on tomorrow, and between this reunion and the one last week and Tori’s birthday party my diet has totally been messed up. I might just have to restart fresh on Monday. Mom and I are supposed to start walking again then too anyway, which I’m actually looking forward to because I was starting to feel better, more energetic and awake, when I was walking regularly.

I went outside to my grandpa’s little building full of his old radios and such because I wanted to check something on the laptop, and it was so loud in there. He could really use a new desk chair. That one kept teetering and swiveling all around. That have some comfortable looking ones at Bush furniture, but I don’t suppose it matters since my grandpa is the only one that really uses it.

I’m insanely tired. I’ve been this way for a few days now. I went yesterday with my grandma to Wal-Mart to buy Tori’s birthday present. I got her Charlotte’s Web (the cartoon version) and a CD with four discs of kid’s songs. I think she’ll like it. We’re having her birthday party out here tomorrow. My grandma is making ham salad sandwiches and we’re having chips with that, and then the cake and ice cream. I think the party is supposed to start around six, so I need to clean up my room sometime between today and tomorrow.

I ordered my books for school a couple of days ago. I got the two I needed online for about $50, which was about $30 less than what I would have paid at the school bookstore. They’re like money hungry leeches, I swear. I also pre-ordered Rilo Kiley’s new album, which is supposed to be out on the 21st of this month, I believe. I’m anxious to hear it. I still haven’t got my Eisley CD yet, but I’m hoping maybe it will arrive tomorrow. We’ll see. I got the movie Poseidon today from Netflix. I’ll probably watch that later tonight since I’m sure there’s nothing on TV.

We really need to have the yard mowed, but I doubt Bart will have a chance to do it before tomorrow. I don’t think my grandparents wanted to ask him anyway since it would be so last minute. Besides, he’d have to hook the lawn mower up to the back of his truck since he can’t actually haul it on the back because he has a tonneau cover that would be in the way. So I guess we’re just leaving it looking a bit like a jungle. I’m just hoping the weather won’t be too hot tomorrow. Yesterday was really nice and comfortable and would have been perfect for her party.

I tried calling the financial aid office at school again today. Still no answer. I did leave a message, and if I don’t hear back by the end of the day, I’ll just fill out the form again and take it up there. It makes me mad, though, because I’ve tried calling three times and there’s never been an answer. I know it would be easy to just fill out the form again, but since I already turned in one, it would help to know if I did something wrong or if they need something else before I make a trip up there. I get so frustrated with them. I swear, they are so disorganized when it comes to this stuff. I thought I had everything done and ready to go for the fall semester, but, alas, they managed to find something else to mail to me at the last minute.

I spent the last half hour or so straightening out my finances. I couldn’t figure out why my bank statement and my quicken account weren’t matching up. Then I realized that it had me as paying for something that I’d canceled, so I think I’ve got that all squared away. For the time being anyway.

I got my BMG Music CDs today. I got Eisley’s Room Noises, M2M’s The Big Room, Sarah McLachlan’s Afterglow, Counting Crows’ Films About Ghosts, Ben Folds’ Rockin’ the Suburbs, Jonny Lang’s Turn Around (which I haven’t heard any of it yet), and The Best of Hanson: The Millennium Collection. I have to buy another CD from BMG and then I get two more free. I think I’ll wait a little while before I buy those. I still have to buy Tori a birthday present, so I think that should come first.

Things are going well on the diet front. Yesterday was the first day in a while where I just felt insanely hungry all day. I use a lot of my flex points yesterday. Hopefully, I’ll do about the same this week as I did this week and it won’t matter much because most days I didn’t use any of my flex points. I just weighed myself again, and I think I’ve lost at least another pound, which is exciting. A while back I was thinking about getting one of those colon cleansing kits. While the idea of a colon cleanse isn’t particularly something I’d like to have done, it’s supposed to help make you feel better and it can help you lose up to ten pounds. I’m not completely against the idea, but I think I’ll just see how things go with Weight Watchers