Yesterday was horrible. We had to do a practice presentation in class for our portfolios. I pretty much froze up and lost all train of thought. Then I wound up being at the school until almost seven o’clock trying to finish up the game box we’ve been working on the last few weeks. I still have to write up my paper for it, but today I haven’t felt like doing anything. I slept in really late and have kind of holed up in my room most of the day. Pathetic, but I just needed the time to myself.

So, apparently, they have these cruises every year where a bunch of bands go and it’s sort of like a concert at sea or something, and next year Hanson is going on it. After seeing the prices for a trip like that, I’m not full convinced that Hanson fans are insane.

I haven’t really been keeping up too much with the Hanson news lately, though. I either don’t have the time or don’t care. I feel like my interest is just waning these days. I have so much real life stuff that I’m concerned with right now, and when I don’t, I just feel like I have other interests that appeal to me more than Hanson. It seems so weird any time I think about it, though, because I feel like I’ve spent so much of my life being a Hanson fan and that has always come first at the top of my interests. Now it just seems to be moving further down the line, and I’m not as bothered by it as I always thought I’d be. Weird.

So, let’s see - I’m stressed. Lots of stuff for finals to finish and not enough hours in the day. I was nominated for some award for my “achievements.” Whatever those are. I get to graduate with honors because of my “outstanding academic accomplishments.” So, apparently someone thinks I’ve achieved or accomplished something worth while. I’m too stressed to reflect right now.

I feel as though I scoured every store in town Friday evening looking for something to wear to give my presentations at the end of the semester. Tried lots of things on, but didn’t have much luck in the way of anything that I deemed appropriate. I’m guessing my breasts probably shouldn’t by hanging out for this sort of thing. Not that they typically are, but someone thinks that nice tops require lots of cleavage. I’m not a fan of the cleavage, I must admit, but then again, that’s just me.

Also, Friday morning we had an EARTHQUAKE. In Indiana. No joke. It woke me up around 5:30 in the morning. I jumped up and said,”What the hell is going on?” My room was shaking and I was tired and confused and I didn’t like it one bit.

So, I’m feeling less than lovey toward Hanson right now, but I have to admit that the “Let’s Get It On” and “Lovefool” singage has made me feel a little warm and cuddly toward them. Only a little. It would be more if Zac showered. *cough* For anyone that’s confused and thinks I’m crazy, I’m referring to their interview on WZPL the other day while they were in Indianapolis.

I also feel like my head might explode from Twilight overload. Over the last few days I finally had a chance to catch up in the Twilight communities I’m a member of and I’ve seen a handful of Twilight related videos, all of which consisting of RPattz!Edward Cullen yumminess and I melted into a puddle of mush. The fact I have to wait until December for this movie is killing me. And I need Breaking Dawn, like 3 months ago, please. I’m embarrassed to admit the number of times I’ve read Twilight. ‘Tis insane. Possibly obsessive. I just can’t help myself.

So sometimes this week I’m going to have to go back out on the hunt for a decent shirt to wear, and I also need to buy a new a new flash drive. I already have two usb flash drives, but they’re both getting full, and at this point, I really can’t get rid of anything because the minute I do, I’ll need something off of it because that’s just my luck.

So I think I’m going to work on some more stuff for class tomorrow because I head to bed. I feel like I am a slave to the school. I spent Friday and Saturday there. My current hobbies consist of homework, Twilight fangirling, homework, reading Twilight fan fiction, homework, reading riveting Dramione fiction that makes me check daily to see it’s been updated, homework, sleep, homework, watching Veronica Mars and homework. Pathetic.

We’re getting family pictures taken on Saturday, and I still have no idea what I’m going to wear. Then on Sunday we’re having Allyson’s 19th birthday party. I still can’t believe she’s going to be 19. Insane.

So I was looking at this website for The Abelson Law Firm, which is a group of Washington DC medical malpractice lawyers, and I was thinking that it’s really too bad that Nikki doesn’t live in DC or one of the surrounding areas. Why? Because the law firm also handles car accident cases. I can’t believe it’s been over a year and a half, and she still hasn’t got anything from her car accident. It’s ridiculous and really scary because people pay for car insurance to insure things will be taken care of, and seeing that’s not happening, kind of makes me worry.

I had another discussion with my grandpa about republicans vs. democrats. It was anything serious, but he always kind of says ‘oh, he’s a democrat’ like that should simply explain everything. I said I’d probably be an independent because I’m not really one of the other. As time goes by, I find myself thinking more and more about things and my opinions seem to be changing from what I grew thinking I was expected to believe because that’s why my family believe into what I feel is right. I guess that’s just all part of growing up, but in some ways it’s kind of scary because a lot of times I’m not really sure what I believe or where I stand on some issues.

Well, it’s official. I’m 24 today. I think I’m handling that well. It’s just daunting to realize that another year has passed, and that it’s possible to another year older. Most days I don’t feel my age because it just doesn’t seem like I’ve been on this earth for 24 years. Most of the time I feel like it was only yesterday that I graduated from high school. How is it possible that next spring I’ll be graduating from college? It’s been a long road, but one I’m ready for. Maybe once I graduated and find a job, I’ll actually feel like an adult. Not that I necessarily feel like a kid, and not that I intend to become some sort of serious person all the time. I like that I can still laugh and joke around and have a real sense of humor. It seems like most adults just become so serious all the time that they just become completely and utterly boring. I don’t want to be like that.

Now that my birthday has arrived, I have several birthdays for friends and family coming up. My grandma’s is in early October, and two of my friends also have birthdays in October. My sister’s birthday is in November. Then we have Thanksgiving. Thankfully, I don’t have to buy gifts for that. Then in December my mom, grandpa, and brother all celebrate birthdays around Christmas time. I’ve been trying to come up something nice I could do for everyone for Christmas, but so far no christmas gift idea. I’ve been buying random things along the way, but I still have so much left to buy. My bank account hurts already.