I’m so excited. I’ve got most of the books I ordered today. I got one yesterday, and then the bulk of it came today. I’m not sure why they sent them separately like that, but whatever. I still have Breaking Dawn coming in August. I’m so excited about that, but the ones I ordered should help tide me over until then.

Sunday we had a dinner for Father’s Day. We had tacos at my Grandpa’s request. I got up early on Sunday morning to get Bart and Grandpa’s gifts. I wanted to get them more personalized gifts, but I had to settle for gift cards for Applebee’s for both of them. I know my mom and Bart go there to eat a lot, and I thought my Grandpa would like it because it could get a steak or something. It was really nice out, and I spent most of the day out on the front porch. Unfortunately, I still have itchy eyes because of that, but I think it was worth it.

Dad called my Uncle Punch while he was out here to see if he had any beer. I can’t get over how ridiculously pathetic my father is. I didn’t even bother in acknowledging on Father’s Day. He hasn’t done anything to deserve it. Bart and Grandpa have been more of a father figure for Allyson, Blaine and myself, at least as far as consistently being around and doing those little things dads are supposed to do. I don’t think I’ve ever really realized that before, but I’m grateful for it, nonetheless.

Well, I actually got out of the house today. I’ve felt like such a hermit lately. Of course, it was raining the whole time I was out, so it wasn’t precisely pleasant. I had to go by the bank and deposit the money I got as gifts for graduation. Then I had to go by Dollar General and pick up a few things before I went by and picked up Blaine. He wanted to stay the night here tonight, which is nice since I feel like I haven’t seen him in weeks.

This weather, though, is a real bummer. I’ve been reading a lately, and it’s mostly been books by Sarah Dessen, and all of the books take place in this made up town of Lakeview, and any time there’s a mention of the beach, it kind of depresses me because it’s so dreary here. For some reason I always imagine one of those Outer Banks vacation homes while I’m reading.

Speaking of vacations, I’m not sure if we’re going anywhere this year. My mom mentioned vacation, but with her I’m never actually sure if that invitation extends to me. I feel like I’m imposing if I ask if I’m allowed to go. But then if I don’t, I feel left out of all of the family adventures. Blah. That probably means I just need to get a life and find things for myself to do so I won’t feel left out.

I was planning to watch the MTV Movie Awards tonight because they were showing a scene from Twilight tonight, but I forgot about it and missed it. Luckily, I found the clip online. I have to admit I’m pretty darn excited about this movie. I don’t know if it’s going to be the same as the book, and even if it’s not, I’ll always have the book to fall back on. I’m just anxious to see how it’s adapted for the big screen. Twilight has easily become one of my most favorite books. I feel so ridiculously fangirlish these days, but I can’t seem to help myself.

On a completely unrelated topic, I think I need to go back on Weight Watchers. I’ve been off since the week before graduation. I was just too stressed at the time to deal with trying to keep track of what I was eating on top of everything else. Well, I never went back on it. In fact, I think I’ve been doing even worse since then. I feel so slothlike and gluttonous. It’s pathetic. My biggest problem is just feeling hungry all the time. I know that taking something like Fenphedra would probably help with that, but right now money is tight.

I need to get back on the job hunt and find something. It’s just kind of scary being out there in the real world now and knowing where to look. I guess all I can really do is look around for places that are hiring and start sending out my resume and hope for the best.

This weather is still crazy. Today it was in the 80s and seemed fairly nice. Now, I’m not sure if it’s cooled down any, but the sun is long gone and all I can hear in the distance is the rumbling of thunder. My grandma said they mentioned something about tornadoes on the news. That’s certainly not something I want to hear. But I guess it’s something I should be used to with Indiana weather. I’m just not used to not being sure if it’s okay to start buying sandbox and pool toys for my niece or if I should be preparing for the end of the world. Not that there’s much I could do to prepare for it anyway.

Aside from the crazy weather, I’ve delved back into reading. I’ve missed it quite a bit in the last few years. I used to always read, but like with so many other things real life got in the way and everything else fell to the wayside. I just finished reading That Summer by Sarah Dessen. Earlier this week I read another of her books, her newest one, Lock and Key. I’ve got a couple more of her books that I bought a while back that I’m planning on getting into next. I just feel better when I’m reading. I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s just that it requiring using your brain, when so much else in life doesn’t take much effort at all. Either way, I’m glad to be reading again. I feel like I’m connecting the person I am now with the person that I used to be.

So, let’s see - I’m stressed. Lots of stuff for finals to finish and not enough hours in the day. I was nominated for some award for my “achievements.” Whatever those are. I get to graduate with honors because of my “outstanding academic accomplishments.” So, apparently someone thinks I’ve achieved or accomplished something worth while. I’m too stressed to reflect right now.

I feel as though I scoured every store in town Friday evening looking for something to wear to give my presentations at the end of the semester. Tried lots of things on, but didn’t have much luck in the way of anything that I deemed appropriate. I’m guessing my breasts probably shouldn’t by hanging out for this sort of thing. Not that they typically are, but someone thinks that nice tops require lots of cleavage. I’m not a fan of the cleavage, I must admit, but then again, that’s just me.

Also, Friday morning we had an EARTHQUAKE. In Indiana. No joke. It woke me up around 5:30 in the morning. I jumped up and said,”What the hell is going on?” My room was shaking and I was tired and confused and I didn’t like it one bit.

So, I’m feeling less than lovey toward Hanson right now, but I have to admit that the “Let’s Get It On” and “Lovefool” singage has made me feel a little warm and cuddly toward them. Only a little. It would be more if Zac showered. *cough* For anyone that’s confused and thinks I’m crazy, I’m referring to their interview on WZPL the other day while they were in Indianapolis.

I also feel like my head might explode from Twilight overload. Over the last few days I finally had a chance to catch up in the Twilight communities I’m a member of and I’ve seen a handful of Twilight related videos, all of which consisting of RPattz!Edward Cullen yumminess and I melted into a puddle of mush. The fact I have to wait until December for this movie is killing me. And I need Breaking Dawn, like 3 months ago, please. I’m embarrassed to admit the number of times I’ve read Twilight. ‘Tis insane. Possibly obsessive. I just can’t help myself.

So sometimes this week I’m going to have to go back out on the hunt for a decent shirt to wear, and I also need to buy a new a new flash drive. I already have two usb flash drives, but they’re both getting full, and at this point, I really can’t get rid of anything because the minute I do, I’ll need something off of it because that’s just my luck.

So I think I’m going to work on some more stuff for class tomorrow because I head to bed. I feel like I am a slave to the school. I spent Friday and Saturday there. My current hobbies consist of homework, Twilight fangirling, homework, reading Twilight fan fiction, homework, reading riveting Dramione fiction that makes me check daily to see it’s been updated, homework, sleep, homework, watching Veronica Mars and homework. Pathetic.