I’m really worried about my best friend, Nikki. Things are just really bad with her right now at home, and I wish there was something more that I could do. I just feel so crappy not being able to do anything that could really help.
I’ve been rereading one of the stories I wrote earlier this year, and it kind of made me think about my dad. Mostly because the main characters relationship with her dad is similar to the one I have with my dad, and by that I mean it’s nearly nonexistent. My dad has so many issues that I don’t even know where to start. He has a drinking problem, for one, and I don’t even know if he’s ever actually gone to any drug rehabs and stayed. I guess I can’t understand how he can just destroy his own life the way he does.
I guess this is related to thinking about Nikki, because just like I feel helpless when it comes to knowing what to do to help make things better for her, I feel the same way about my dad. I guess I wish I could just fix things and make them better, but I know I can’t. It’s just aggravating, and I wish I knew what to say or do.